Got a new baby chameleon C: Her name is Mint! She’s growing up to be a really gutsy >.< hopefully she doesn’t hurt herself in the future~
I’m afraid i don’t love him for him but rather I’m inlove with the idea of being with him. It hurts so much to leave him but I’m too scared to hurt him even more if I didn’t truly love him. What do i do? What’s the right thing to do?
The best kind of relationship is the kind where you two just cant not be touching or near each other. There’s no real boundary between their body and yours, you just need them close as much as you need your body attached.
Soo fucking cute!!!!
It’s always so difficult right after he leaves.
People always talk about how hard long distance relationships are. It’s the hardest RIGHT after the other person leaves. It’s not when you’ve been apart for a long time… or when you’re finally able to be face to face.
It’s the hardest when you have spent time and time together, experiencing what life would be if that person were to be with you. What it feels like not to be long distance. Then having him go.The feeling of detachment when he’s gone. Feeling insecure, as if he doesn’t care for you as much as he did. And it doesn’t get better after the first time, or the second time, or the third time it happens. Every single time he goes it’s there. It leaves gaping holes. Holes that are filled with bad things. Anxiety, loneliness, doubts. You were so good while they were with you, and now that their gone… everything is a mess.
I’m honestly just so tired of feeling like this. Time and time again. I’m going to try and make him feel what it’s like not to have me in his life… Knowing the kind of guy he is… he’ll probably just ignore it. He’s a very self absorbed guy and believes in just letting others sort their own things out. Not one of those ‘chase after you’ guys haha… Well, i’m not sure what i’m trying to achieve but.. I hope i get some resolve.
you must know that I’ve been broken into a million pieces. A boy came into my life, we talked, we liked each other, we fell in love, I felt so happy, and then he left. No goodbyes, no explanations. He took a piece of me that I cannot take back. So please, understand that…